Energy Flows…Watch Where it Goes

Always Tired

In the not-so-long ago past I was working with a Southern Gospel group who also happened to be good friends of mine. They felt God was calling them to go into full-time ministry and wanted to make a change in their lives…so they hired me. One of the lead singers used to be my boss…I’d watched him labor (as his only employee) to run an entire business by himself for someone else. He scarcely had time for his family often working 70+ hours per week. The job he had was safe and wrong and I had wanted to see him out of it ever since we became good friends. So when he approached me to do booking from at home for his group I had already decided that they would succeed. I had heard the CD, knew where their passion was and had determined that I would open the doors necessary to get them living another way.

At this time in my life I knew very little about how energy flows, or the abundance of the universe. All I knew was this had to happen…and I had to do it. This task consumed my mind 24 hours a day, seven days a week for over two years. I poured myself, my energy, my mind, my time, my heart and my emotions into creating this alternative. It was literally like giving birth and when they got signed to a label I had never before in my life been so tired. I didn’t understand until much later that I was literally throwing energy out into this process, stealing my life force and lending toward grasping the immaterial and dragging it kicking and screaming into the material…problem was, I didn’t know how to recharge. I just gave and gave. Eventually it had to stop…and so it did. But it was another almost 2 years before I figured out what had happened.

Harnessing Attention

One of the first things I needed to learn was how to focus. I would mentally do donuts on the beach regarding what I wanted to happen, or the opportunities I was working on, going over and over every little detail like a mantra…I would see what I wanted mentally but underneath I often carried the fear that it wouldn’t happen and the anxiety that I was not doing enough. So on the little things I would be full of self-sabotage but I never loss sight of the big things. Daily I envisioned the group in front of people, connecting with audiences and doing what was in their hearts to do. The image was so strong I could see it, feel it and knew in the core of my being that was where they were going, when I would get so full of anxiety that I couldn’t take it anymore, I would spend time in this larger place…and this is the reason that it worked at all. Focusing and training your mind toward abundance requires that you can:

The Law of Attraction

The reason that I was able to help my friends create a new life…in a way in which many people in their industry said could not be done…is the law of attraction, which simply put…means you get what you think about. If you can imagine it, feel it and make it real mentally…then it comes to you because you emanate a complimentary energy which ATTRACTS your desires. Many of us have self-sabotaging habits such as worry and anxiety that can instead get us emanating an energy that compliments the things we are worried about. In my case, the knowing was stronger than the sabotage…so it worked out…it worked out fast and everything fell into place in a way beyond the ability of the individuals involved. The constant energy battle I engaged in at this time however, left me tired. I was exhausted from the effort and it took many months and several years to understand how I lost energy and why the experience didn’t feel good much of the time.

Energy

As a seven on the enneagram, I worked very hard to pull things into manifestation to stave off my basic fear of being stuck in an unpleasant, unwanted or otherwise painful situation. I was always outrunning this fear and sending enormous amounts of energy out of myself as a kind of crucifix that I used to ward off the evils lurking in the darkness of my personality that I had not yet confronted. I had not learned to pick and choose where I put my energy. My mind would race and my energy would follow…extremely scattered it flew out by the fistfuls toward every imagined want that passed my thoughts. For a seven, there are fifty-million little desires a day that are pleasant distractions…if you want to have any effect on even one of them…you have to learn to consciously ‘place’ your energy instead of letting it follow every little desire.

Making Time for Visualization

As I gained in health I started setting time aside to visualize my desires. At first this was not easy…I had so many it was hard to choose and my mind just could not provide me with any answers in this regard which would trigger the fear of ‘missing out’ on something. So I learned to start with a meditation that would quiet my mind. Once all the stuff that had been flying around in there was out, I was able to obtain a state of contentment…pure gold for a seven! From there, it was easy to see how much of what I thought I wanted I already had, or was unnecessary…so prioritizing what to spend my time manifesting got a lot easier. Now I spend time visualizing not so much to manifest but to bring into myself…the abundance that is all around me…everywhere I look. This makes me literally hum with joyful energy…so I sure don’t have to be concerned with what I’m attracting!

Learning to Recharge

Pulling energy out of yourself is unhealthy…especially if you have not yet learned how to recharge. In order to fill up, you have to open up. This may sound backwards…but this is how it works. You have to drop everything, your fears, your wants, your desires, your social roles and supposed-to-bes…you enter naked…just as you truly are…open to the love that is God. Opening up requires a level of comfort and safety so it is no wonder that it takes some practice. A meditation that you are comfortable with will work just fine as a starting place. Start with the meditation and then visualize yourself filling up with radiant light with every deep inhalation you take. Glow, reverberate with it. The light rushes into you from the sun, the trees, the earth beneath you, the stars and moon of the night sky…it comes from everywhere at once…filling you with comfort, joy and love. This is a great way to recharge and open up. Eventually, when you become adept at pulling energy into yourself…you’ll begin this practice before you work on manifesting your desires into your life. This way the energy you use to manifest is not coming only from you…and you can fill up again at any time. This makes the work of manifesting go with lightness and ease and this by far, is the biggest lesson I learned from my experience in music industry. It doesn’t have to be hard and difficult. Once you understand energy, the law of attraction and how to manifest…you can do so with ease.

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