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The Power of Space

Posted by Paula Kawal on 16 Aug 08 - 0 Comments

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Spacious Ocean Scene

A Message From My Higher Self

During a recent meditation I received a beautiful message from my Higher Self that was the inspiration for writing this post that I had been playing with putting together for some time. I had been standing with her by the ocean, which is spiritually very sacred to me. We gazed out over the water together, breathing in the energy, sitting silently listening to the voice of the waves and the wind.

She turned to me suddenly at the height of this experience and said, “Do you know what it is about the ocean that you are connecting with?” I began to go inside and reflect when she directed my gaze by saying, “Look out onto the horizon and bring it all inside of you.” She paused for a moment and said softly, “It is not the water you love, it is the vastness…what would the water be without the horizon? What would this grandeur and beauty be without the space through which you can behold it? Understand that it is the space that you love and bring spaciousness into everything you do.”

The moment it was said, it rang true. The ocean which runs as far as the eye can see is vast, any object on it’s surface is clearly visible. Visually, it is a clean and clear landscape to behold and just by watching it, it begins to create similar properties within me. I organize myself internally to reflect its natural state…my thinking clears, my mind empties, oneness and spaciousness enter and I feel the separation melt away. I am consciousness, flowing, breathing, contracting and releasing without attachment.

Creating Spaciousness in Your Life

Creating space in life is a necessity. Especially when you consider that we can only successfully track 5-7 things, in our conscious awareness at a time. When we hold on to more than that the rest of the stuff gets pushed into our unconscious mind and this is how many of our unconscious patterns are born.

If you are on the path of personal development, you want to consciously control what is added to your unconscious mind. To do that you have to be mindful of your thoughts and maintain a level of spaciousness within your thinking. Here are some quick and easy ways of doing this that you can use throughout your day:

Focus on only one thing at a time.
Many of us run laundry lists of all the things we have to do on a continual loop within our minds. This takes up an enormous amount of space and energy to maintain! Write it down if you think you might forget and then allow you mind to only focus on the step that you can do right now. When that passes, move on to the next in the same order.

Breathe.
Pause every 15 minutes to half an hour and perform patterned breathing. The count can be anything you’d like, just make sure it follows an inhale, pause, exhale execution. Put your full concentration on what each part of the breath feels like. Perform the breathing patterns 3-5 times, and then continue on to the next thing.

Listen.
Stop and listen to your surroundings. Breathe deeply, while closing your eyes and listening with your full attention for about 2 minutes. Allow no censorship or thoughts about what you hear to come into your mind. Simply be with the sensations, texture and nuances of the sounds. Notice the vibrational quality to them and where in your body you can feel reverberations.

Practice putting your mind down.
This is one of my favorite little exercises in which I visualize giving my mind to something in my immediate environment (the airport is a great place for this). For some of you this may seem like a strange concept, but trust me. This is great fun once you get over the initial strange feeling and it’s a wonderful way to unload from the burden of non-stop thought for awhile!

Coaching and Space

In coaching, space is the foundation upon which all effective coaching techniques are built and when coaching isn’t working, it almost always comes down to the coaches mastery of this core skill. It works because it is one of the purest ways that we can interact with anyone or thing.

When I hold space for a client, I create a sacred field of connectedness and acceptance for them to work in. This is done by literally taking off my own views and filters of the world and entering a pure state of consciousness, where I am fully present and able to respond, where I am listening to what is said, and hearing what has not yet been uttered. From this place I can see very clearly what the client is attending to as well as what lies in the background outside of their vision. It is the quality of this attention, that provides insight and safety and makes coaching such an effective tool.

Holding space however, is not limited to coaching in it’s usefulness. It’s a way of being that can greatly enhance any aspect of life that it is applied to, since nearly all of life, is some form of relating :)

Generating the Coaching State (Holding Space)

    Breathe. Start by breathing deeply and purposefully.
    Visualize. See yourself and your environment bathed in white or golden light.
    Feel. Place your attention in your body. Notice how the light fills you up, how each breath feels as it enters and exits your lungs, how your energy is revitalized and you are filled with peace.
    Be. Now begin the get curious about the world around you, stretching your feeling senses into the environment around you. Notice how the air feels against your skin, enjoying an experience completely devoid of thought.
    Explore. Like an explorer in new territory, interact with your surroundings in a way that lets you examine. Get curious about the paths and places before you and where they might lead. An adventure has found you and like a good story, you won’t know what it means until it is over…so simply allow yourself to get curious about and perhaps a little lost in, the experience!

How do I know when I’m holding space?
You are holding space when there are no distractions and the mind is quiet while the senses are awake. You’ll know you are there because you can be with a person or place without any planning about what you will do or say, or any trying to “figure things out”. There is a trust present as well as an observing curiosity. It is a safe, peaceful place…where anything can be looked at and transformed!

Practice holding space every day and you will be able to produce this state whenever you want to disconnect from looping thought patterns, limitation, dis-ease, resistance or anything else that is troubling you and tap into a new way of being with your problems and therefore discovering what is actually possible for you or anyone else at this given moment :)


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Oh little girl
There are times when I feel
I’d rather not be
The one behind the wheel

~ Depeche Mode

The following outlines a common roadblock toward allowing your Higher-Self to guide your life and provides a process for moving through this resistance…

Do you want help or not?

Most of us think we want guidance…in fact, we ask for it repeatedly to be certain that our request is heard. When asking a service of our Spirit Team, we often hold on to it, out of fear that it won’t get done. By not letting go…we ensure that this is the case, and we are left to wonder why our Guides aren’t working for us.

Understanding Resistance

This bewildering phenomenon is one of the most common forms of self-sabotage that we encounter when working with Spirit. It is subtle and insidious and leaves us wondering why our situation hasn’t changed.

Well, let me ask you this. If you were riding with someone and they told you to take the wheel, but then stubbornly clung to it, continuing to steer the car…could you really drive for them? Wouldn’t your efforts to go this way or that be thrown off by their resistance toward letting go? Would you be confused? Perhaps, you would stop trying as you realize that they aren’t really ready for your help.

Recognizing when you’re holding on

We unconsciously do this to our Higher-Selves and Spirit Guides all of time and while they may stop trying to navigate in a moment like this, they remain by our sides, just waiting for us to release our troubles…and allow them to assist us.

If you have asked for spiritual assistance with something but don’t seem to be experiencing relief, do a quick internal search and notice if there is any part of you that is still holding on. Be with the idea and allow your awareness to scan your body for any tension areas.

The body speaks that which the mind refuses to acknowledge.

An easy way to find them is to start meditative breathing while contracting and relaxing all of your major muscle groups. Using this relaxation technique for contrast, you will be able to identify which areas in your body are not letting go…they will correspond with the part of yourself that does not want to release the issue into the hands of your Higher-Self and Guides.

Internal Explorations

When you are conscious of the part that is hanging on, notice the emotions that are present. Get curious about this operation within yourself, observe with a detached mindset, and allow yourself to accept what you find as simply part of the landscape. Now is not the time for meaning so give yourself the task of simply exploring.

Place your attention on the very center of the physical location of this part. Bring your consciousness into this area of your body and notice how it feels. It will likely make many changes while you give it your attention. Simply be with the changes, going more deeply into yourself with each iteration until you get a visual of yourself as this part. Notice how this you is holding onto your situation, are the hands clenched? Or is this holding on being represented in some other way?

Now notice your Higher-Self placing a reassuring hand upon the you that is holding on. This part of you looks up at your Higher Self and lets go. At the moment of release, step into this other you and experience the support of your Higher-Self and just how good it feels to let go.

Sweet surrender: the bliss of letting go

From this space of peace, observe the larger picture and notice what you’ve learned from experiencing this situation. Notice how grateful you are for this opportunity to receive support and see yourself entering into your current circumstances complete, whole and at peace…with your Higher-Self right beside you, ready and willing to take the wheel.

You decide to relax, and enjoy the ride while you let him/her navigate for a time…looking out the window, you notice that there is a lot to see as a passenger and wonder at what you would have missed, if you hadn’t decided to let go :)

The real paradox

In reality both you and your Higher-Self are in control…since you are one and the same. Your Higher-Self is simply your highly evolved, spiritual consciousness…but it is still, in essence, who you are. The paradox is, that until you recognize this unity, neither of you is really in control because you can counteract each other’s efforts like in the earlier scenario of two people trying to drive.

Life is a series of contraction and release. The trick is knowing which to do, when.

Navigating life with our Higher-Selves is a kind of dance. A common theme in dance is two partners becoming One and this is the great spiritual lesson of this practice that has evolved in nearly every culture on the planet.

In my coaching and NLP classes we practiced a technique called mirroring. You would find a partner and just move. One person would start and the other would mirror their movements. As you get in sync with your partner, they take over the lead and so it goes, back and forth until you can no longer tell who is leading and who is following…at this point it is simply flow.

I find that in my own relationship with my Higher-Self that this mirroring is how we started the dance. I desired to connect, and so I learned how to “mirror” my Higher-Self. I practiced and practiced until we achieved flow and the lines between us began to disappear.

If you are interested in learning how to “mirror” your Higher-Self, please sign up for my six week Dancing with Your Higher-Self Intuitive Coaching Course. In this program I will connect to your Higher-Self and Guides and download an agenda and homework assignments that are designed to bring you into your own connection with your Spiritual Resources.

As this work comes from your Higher-Self and Guide Team, it will be an act of discovery for us both to see just how your connection with them will unfold. The program consists of six weeks of coaching, one half hour call per week with homework. The price for the program is $150.00.


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Inner Wisdom Project - July 1, 2008

Archived in the category: Blogroll, Inner Wisdom Project
Posted by Paula Kawal on 01 Jul 08 - 2 Comments


Welcome to the July 1, 2008 edition of Inner Wisdom Project!

Well, here it is, my first blog carnival and what better subject to do a carnival on than Inner Wisdom!

We had sixteen submissions in all, not bad for the first run :)

Due to the amount of submissions I broke them down into two large categories (submissions with a message for my readers and submissions that I felt had a message for myself.)

However, I have chosen to include in the carnival only the articles that I felt held something for you, the other submissions can be read via links at the end of this post.

So, it is with great love and appreciation for the voices of all of the contributing authors that I present this carnival now.

Metaphysical

New Age

  • Dawn Abraham Life Coach presents Chakra Clearing posted at Qualified Life Coach.Com. The Chakra Meditation that Dawn shares here has a physical element to it that assists in the clearing and balancing of each energy center. For those used to using a strictly meditative approach, this kinesthetic addition is a nice way to include more of the senses :) .

Spiritual Wisdom

That concludes this edition. Submit your blog article to the next edition of Inner Wisdom Project using our carnival submission form. Past posts and future hosts can be found on our blog carnival index page.

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Share Your Thoughts
This carnival will improve with feedback from you, the reader. Let me know which articles you’d like to see more of. The purpose of this carnival is to celebrate our inner knowing…so feel free to tap into your own inner knowing and let me know what’s working for you!

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Creatorship

You may not believe that we are God. That’s o.k., I’m not here to convert you, change your mind, tell you are wrong or to prove that I am right because none of that matters to me in the least…it’s all just mind stuff that serves to distract us from what is real.

Instead, I am here to ask you a very important question and then to offer you one of the most insane and absurdly simple answers to just about any problem. Mastering this pattern, not only attunes us to our full creatorship but also creates within us lasting inner peace.

Start by Questioning Suffering Often

When you find that you are suffering…ask yourself if this is really working for you?
Are you being offered heaven or hell by the thoughts, programs and patterns that your belief systems are generating in this moment?

If your thoughts offer you hell, why not create heaven instead?

Do you think…
I’m being punished for the night we spent together?

l don’t think it’s God who punishes us.
l think we punish ourselves.
Would it not be a comfort to believe…
just for a time…
that we create our own heavens and our own hells?

It would be a comfort.
It would, Lancelot.

Maybe God does not grant you all the comforts you ask of Him…
but offers you others which you refuse to see.
Maybe you should find the comforts He does offer you…
my dear lady, and accept them. ~ The Mists Of Avalon

Creating our heavens requires us to take responsibility for our hells.

Owning the Keys to the Gates of Hell

Step One: Look around and ask, how did I create this?
There are two things that happen immediately when I say this, because of what is implied in this statement. The first is acceptance and the second is possibility.

Surely, if I can create something large and impacting in one direction…it stands to reason that there was a process or a procedure that I used to get there. If I can become conscious of what I am doing that is not working for me…I am in a better position to notice what is missing, what I’m not paying attention to and design a way of simply taking that energy and turning the other way with it.

Step Two: Turn the other way by finding the good.
Ask yourself to find anything that is good and positive about (or as a result of) your situation.

In every set of circumstances in life, you can find opposites. Look for the comforts that are available to you within your problems, see how you might learn from them, how they can help you to grow or how they may in fact be helpful to someone else.

Look for a way to align yourself within the situation. This positions you for acceptance and forward movement by creating space within your problem for new ways of being with it, new thoughts and new emotions.

You are the Kingdom

The Kingdom of God is within you.

When we are at war with ourselves on the inside, the universe lines up our outer circumstances to reflect this to us and it would seem like the entire world is against us. When we comes to terms within, the lightness and ease with which we can move through our inner world follows us out into our physical experience…and everything seems to go our way.

Hell is merely a reflection of the conflict we rage upon ourselves, we create heaven by cultivating inner harmony, congruence and peace. If life is not enjoyable and you lack that peace…it is your responsibility to let go of the struggle, to put down the weapons you have been using against yourself and to make the choice to take notice of the comforts that are all around you.

Accepting Creatorship

No one else is responsible for the life we create. We create with our every thought, emotion and impulse, consciously and unconsciously alike. This is what it means to be a creator…and this is the Truth operating within our lives regardless of whether or not we embrace this viewpoint.

Our power, however, (despite our many fears) actually lies in ownership. When we take ownership of what we create, our creations are of a higher quality…the quality that comes from operating out of our conscious awareness. The more consciously we create the more control we have over our quality of consciousness and the more we grow ;) .

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Valuing Your Intuition

Posted by Paula Kawal on 11 Jun 08 - 3 Comments

Your Intuition is Your Best Friend

Have you ever found yourself in the completely unexpected situation of realizing that being aware of our intuition and being compelled to act upon it can be two different things?

Awareness for some is enough to change behavior but for others something more is needed…as many people are aware of their intuitive responses and are still unable to follow them.

Why would that be?

In any situation in life, we have several possibilities and/or choices in front of us. The choices that we pay the most attention to are the ones that we perceive to be the most significantly linked to our needs and wants (as in general this determines what people value).

For many people developing their intuitive abilities, intuition is not yet linked to anything, so while they can see it, they can’t really perceive it as a choice. This due to how our brain categorizes our experiences.

Categories and Experiences

When we make the decision to develop our intuitive abilities, we reach success by engaging a process that creates an awareness of our intuition and how we personally experience it. This is what allows us to cue into prompts from our Higher Selves, Angels and Spirit Guides.

The first step of this process involves creating a space (or category) within ourselves that houses our criteria for intuition. We then sort through our experiences (matching this criteria to the memories that fit) and place them into our category of intuition. This in essence, gives us an awareness of how we experience intuition. It tells us what to look for so that we can identify when we are having an intuitive experience.

Going through this process allows us to discover (now that we are clear about what we are looking for) that the voice of our intuition has always been there in the background, it was simply running outside of our conscious awareness because we had no framework in place through which to internally reference it.

As we go along with this new reference point of intuition clearly defined, we add more experiences to our category and it gets larger…expanding our view of our intuitive responses to life.

So how do we link our intuition to our values so that we can see it as a viable choice?

One of the best ways to do this is to watch what we are attending to when we are faced with making a choice. We are almost always attending to one of three things, the cause & effect of making the choice, what it means to make the choice or what the relationship is between our behavior and the choice. The following questions are useful in determining what we are paying attention to:

  1. Cause & Effect – What do I believe listening to my intuition can/will make happen in this situation?
  2. Meaning – What does it mean about me to make the decision of listening to my intuition?
  3. Relationship – What is the relationship between using my intuition and the situation I’m thinking of?

Once we know what we have been paying attention to that is preventing us from being able to act, we can quickly re-frame the experience so that we are now paying attention to something that allows us some freedom and mobility within our thoughts about being intuitive.

Our thoughts about the situation will tell us exactly what our brains are looking for, and where the links to our intuition that carry the most impact, can be made.

For example, Cause and Effect:
Lets say I’m getting the intuitive impulse to start a business and my immediate thought is that all new businesses fail…this is a generalization that would make my intuition hard to follow but my mind is telling me exactly where to go here.

So I would challenge this assumption with. Since new businesses often fail, you want to be sure that your business is a success.

This structure is very different and invites me to explore my intuition rather than ignore it.

Example # 2, Meaning:
If I think listening to my intuition to open a new business is irresponsible, I’m not likely to want to align myself with this idea because it is most likely against my value system to be irresponsible.

I could serve myself much better by saying, Since opening a new business is a large responsibility, gathering information intuitively gives me a larger pool of knowledge through which to make the best business decisions possible.

Example # 3, Context:
If I’m thinking that using intuition in (business situations) means people won’t like me, then I might stop myself from accessing my intuition in these situations in order to avoid isolation.

A good re-frame would be, So using intuition in business makes you think that people won’t like you, but your intuition is often very useful in creating connectedness with your friends.

All of these responses start to link our intuition with valued resources. In the above scenarios these resources were represented as success, responsibility and connection with others.

The more we link our intuition to the things that we value in life, the easier it is for us not only to access but also to act upon and the stronger a resource it becomes!

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New Site - New Look!!!

Archived in the category: Announcements, Blogroll
Posted by Paula Kawal on 05 Jun 08 - 0 Comments

Hello Everyone!

Here is a quick note to let you know that I’ve built a new site designed around my blog. Everything is now forwarding to http://www.journeyinpro.com.

The new site is much easier to navigate and I think you will enjoy the changes!
(Current subscribers will need to subscribe to the new feed.)

Please stop by and let me know what you think :)


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Crystall Ball - Mind Reading

Understanding the Limitations and Expectations You Have Around Receiving Help

Sometimes we are in obvious need of help but are completely unable to articulate it even to ourselves…these are usually the times when we just wait for someone else to notice our predicament and offer a hand. I call this looking for a mind reader.

In situations when we find ourselves hoping for someone else to save us…we are usually doing so because within that moment we are actually not capable of seeking assistance ourselves and here is the reason why this often happens.

Option Lock

Option lock is a form of tunnel vision that keeps us from seeing or experiencing the various things around us that we could be paying attention to. A good way to visualize it is to imagine someone carrying an item that is too heavy for them down the stairs. It seemed manageable when they began, but pretty soon they are out of breath and it takes every ounce of their concentration just to maintain balance and hold themselves and the item up.

At this point, with all of their attention focused on maintaining their current position they are in an option lock. Unless they remove some of their attention away from maintaining this load…they will have no other course of action available and will literally allow the situation to play out in an unconscious way as they sit down, pinned underneath the items they are carrying until they can breath again.

The obvious course of action to the observing bystander would be to let go. This is not as easy as it may sound (as anyone who has learned to water ski and has been drug face first through 20 or so feet of water while relentlessly hanging on the handles will tell you ;) ). It requires consciousness to make another choice.

So what happens to consciousness in situations like these? Where does it go?

Losing Consciousness

Anytime it takes so much of our concentration to just be with a situation it is difficult for us to direct our consciousness. If you think of your attention like the small beam of light that is produced by a flashlight, then consciousness would be the hand holding the light that ultimately illuminates our surroundings. When consciousness gets stuck, it’s no longer free to move and allow us to explore new options.

In situations that suck up all of our internal resources, we aren’t reserving enough energy to power our consciousness…or in other words to move the light. We are now in a mode that is similar to Star Trek’s many auxiliary power scenarios in which only the areas vital to survival are given any juice. This process is automatically switched on and controlled but just like in the science fiction version of this scene there is always a manual over ride. With our light stuck in the last place we left it…it can be difficult to remember that there is a way out of being on autopilot.

Regaining Consciousness

The first step toward regaining consciousness is always breath. If you breathe deeply for a few moments, you will have taken some of your attention back from whatever situation was absorbing it. This automatically releases us from autopilot and we are essentially once again free to move about the cabin!

Conscious Prayer: Making Well-Formed Requests

It is often at the times when we are in option lock and we loose consciousness that we need prayer the most. Spirit can’t answer unconscious prayers…it requires our consciousness to move the energy of our prayer requests throughout the spiritual realms. This is largely because of a little thing called free-will.

So as stated previously, step one is to breathe. The next step involves a high level of personal observation. Ask yourself, what do I want help with? What will having this help allow me to do or have or be that’s even more important (in other words, why does it matter or what are you trying to get for yourself by making this request)? How will I know when I’ve gotten what I have asked for?

Mind Reading: A Violation of Free Will

When I was a little girl, I had such a special connection with my mom that I was absolutely certain that she knew everything I was thinking. So certain was I of this, that I began to think I no longer needed to tell her anything about what I wanted. One day, through a great disappointment I discovered that she could not, in fact, read my mind. My wants and ideas had become too complicated for her to anticipate and I was going to have to learn to speak up and state what I wanted.

I think it works with spirit similarly. When we are in the beginning stages, what we want is usually connected to our basic needs and spirit always takes care of us in this way. As we grow beyond basic needs however…we’ve outgrown what spirit can automatically do for us and it is time for us to start directing the resources around us so that we get exactly what we want.

As much as we wish that spirit would sometimes just read our minds and take over our responsibility to govern ourselves within this universe, we must understand that spirit would never do anything to impede our gifts and/or power…that is why we have free-will.

We’ve been given consciousness for a reason…it is the power and responsibility inherited to us by our Creator Source…and it is our job, here in this earth experiment to learn to use this connection to create beauty, passion, purpose and joy within our lives :)

So if you catch yourself looking for a mind reader, realize quickly that the better way lies in empowering yourself instead…spirit is right there…ready, willing and waiting to fulfill your conscious requests!

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Keeping the Magic…

Archived in the category: Blogroll, Energy, Finding Your Purpose, Metaphysical
Posted by Paula Kawal on 23 May 08 - 2 Comments

Keeping the Magic

When I was twelve, through the book Dragons of Autumn Twilight, I was introduced to the wonderful world of Krynn, a place where magic…real magick was as natural as breathing for the inhabitants. To some it was a reason for being, for others it was something to dislike or mistrust. Despite these differences however, it was acknowledged by all as a channel of power that flows into and shapes the material world.

If I am to be completely honest, though I would have to admit that my interest in magic began even earlier, while still in grade school. At a young age I developed a hunger for fairy tales, especially those involving magic (of which there were many to choose from).

My favorite movies all involved magic; the Neverending Story, Labyrinth, the Dark Crystal, the Secret of Nihm, the Hobbit, Willow and the Last Unicorn just to name a few.

Like the characters of these stories, I longed for my initiation to begin, to cross paths with some wise wizard and be drug helplessly into the arms of adventure…

At some point I became convinced that there was a part of me that did not belong here on earth but came instead from some other world or plane and that because of this, I had brought something with me that was trying to awaken, if I just knew who I really was…where I came from…I could find it.

I wondered when my teacher would appear.

Words began take form and develop within me with such velocity that I could feel their truth. It was a phrase that I dared utter only within the shelter of my most sacred internal spaces:

Life IS magic…

While I didn’t understand this completely, I felt the loss of my soul’s sorcery quite deeply and a portion of my being mourned it quite literally. I felt as if I had been unintentionally dumped in an alien plane in which the life blood of everything was missing.

Never mind that this sense of displacement was actually true, when looked at from the perspective of a star-traveler soul!

The idea of being alone in this way caused me to panic and I frantically pawed at life searching for the corridor to the place from which I came and where my hungry soul could drench its thirst and feel the magic, the breath of life itself, course through my veins.

Alas it seemed that no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t find a way to physically leave…and believe me, I tried vehemently to will myself home or to another realm that seemed a close match as I didn’t know what or where home really was! I never realized just how close I was coming during my astral travel and in my dream space…to doing just that!

No Satisfaction

With this dynamic playing in the background my teen-aged years became a completely frustrating time. The mentors I was looking for never showed up in the small town I lived in…a place where (back then) you would be very hard pressed to find a metaphysical bookstore. There weren’t even these sorts of sections in the larger bookstores in the one mall our town and the surrounding area possessed…so I poured over fantasy books for clues devouring all things at my disposal that just might reveal some sort of teaching…anything even remotely close to what I was looking for was closely examined. It wouldn’t be long though…before the adventure found me.

Until it began in a recognizable way however, I was alone with this quest that I dared not speak for fear that others, when they realized I was serious, would label me insane. Rather than endure the lectures that would follow, I kept silent…and so I held my secrets very close to my heart.

The Unfolding of My Secret Heart

Those of you who read this blog, know that I have absolutely no such fears now…I know my magic and how to express it!

I am in constant contact with the life-blood I was seeking and know how to shape and mold the world before me. I actually consider my profession to be very magical :)

My tools are a bit unconventional by the standard of some. Not everyone believes that the way you breath can change the world, or that our souls and unconscious parts can talk, that everything in this world is a reflection of the Divine, or that energy is more real that what we often term reality…and that what we think to be unchangeable is actually very fluid in Nature and is simply responding to our expectations…but I digress.

A School of Wizardry

I am tempted now toward wondering how it might have looked if I had found a secret school of magic during that delicate time? What if I could have attended a school of esoteric studies? What might life have looked like?

Well, I think it would have looked something like the Grey School of Wizardry!

Below is a letter from HeadMaster Oberon Zell-Ravenheart in which he explains how this school of magic came about.


Esoteric Education: Restoring the Wonder

By Oberon Zell-Ravenheart
Headmaster, Grey School of Wizardry

Once, not too long ago . . . education was considered a rare privilege to be earned or granted, a goal to achieve, a dream to fulfill. Schools were seen as repositories of esoteric knowledge that would unlock the keys to the universe, and the secrets to success. Scholars were held in the highest esteem by all members of society. What we take for granted today was once considered a cherished opportunity to be strived for at any cost. Consider this: less than a century ago, women in traditional European Jewish culture (which prides itself on education and scholarship) were not even allowed to learn how to read! And many women today in traditional Moslem and Hindu societies are still not allowed the “luxury” of literacy. Indeed, throughout most of human history, education—even the basic ability to read, was limited to a small and privileged class of literati. Now, at least in America—it is available to everyone, and anyone.

Did you know that 60% of American high school graduates cannot find their own country on an unmarked globe of the world? These same graduates think cave men lived with dinosaurs! Indeed, there is a deliberate anti-intellectual and anti-educational current running through our entire country, which is even influencing the outcome of national elections! Pop Culture has supported disdain for education; How did a terminally depressing song—“The Wall,” by Pink Floyd, with the refrain, “We don’t need no education”—become the hit of a decade, and the theme song of an entire generation?

I have always had an obsessive love of learning. I want to know everything! As soon as I learned to read, at about age two, I began to devour every book and magazine in the house. When I visited friends, I’d spend my time just reading the books on their shelves. My reading compulsion even extended to the fine print on cereal boxes! The first time I saw the inside of a library, I was agonizingly torn between sheer delight at the vast number of books available to me, and utter dismay at the realization that I could never possibly read all of them. My own personal library today has several thousand treasured volumes—many of them dog-eared from frequent consultation. And I am constantly obtaining more, and reading them. When I’m not actually writing, I’m usually reading.

Unlike many of my friends when I was growing up, I passionately loved school. I could hardly wait ‘til summer vacation ended and I could return to classes, armed with fresh questions for my teachers from my summer of reading everything I could get my hands on about everything that interested me. When I wasn’t actually in class, I spent as much time as possible in the public library, and was on a first-name basis with the librarian, who would always set aside new arrivals in my favorite areas for me. In high school, I served as a teacher’s assistant in biology, edited the school literary journal, published a student newspaper, was very active in the Latin and chess clubs, and had a major role in every school play. And I continued most of these activities and involvements all through college.

I have spent most of my life in learning and teaching. When in college I read A.S. Neil’s Summerhill, B.F. Skinner’s Walden Two, and learned of Maria Montessori’s schools. After receiving a BA from Westminster College in Pre-Med, Psychology, Sociology and Anthropology, I shifted my interests to Developmental Psychology and Education, entering the graduate program in Clinical Psychology at Washington University, and earning a Teacher’s Certificate at Harris Teacher’s College. My first post-graduate job was with the newly-launched Head Start program, and I served as a public school teacher and school & family counselor for several decades.

Student Attitudes

Oprah Winfrey said this about why she chose to build a new school in South Africa rather that in the US: “I became so frustrated with visiting inner-city schools that I just stopped going. The sense that you need to learn just isn’t there. If you ask the kids what they want or need, they will say an iPod or some sneakers.” (Newsweek, Jan. 8. 2007)

From my own observations growing up in public schools, college and university, and from working many years as a teacher, one simple fact became overwhelmingly clear at all levels: Most students hated school! They only attended because it was compulsory. They did everything they could to get out of actually studying, from watching TV and not doing homework as kids, to partying all night in college. Their interests centered around their friends and relationships, not around actually learning anything. Many of them barely scraped by, some by cheating (often in elaborately creative ways), and many simply dropped out as soon as they could. When I was in high school, one of the most popular songs proudly proclaimed:

Don’t know much about history Don’t know much trigonometry
Don’t know much biology Don’t know much about algebra
Don’t know much about a science book Don’t know what a slide rule is for.
Don’t know much about the French I took (Sam Cooke, “Wonderful World,” 1958)

So what was wrong with all these U.S. schools? How is it possible that generations of students could come away from classes in history, science, geography, literature, foreign languages, and mathematics feeling bored out of their skulls—believing that these were terminally dull subjects with no relevance whatsoever to anything they considered important in life? How could such fascinating studies as natural history, evolution, astronomy, cosmology, geology, archaeology, paleontology, anthropology, psychology, sociology, biology, and all those other wonderful “logies” fail to engage the interest of young minds—even in the passionate era of the ‘60s?

How can students and their families sit idly by, unprotesting, as “controversial” books and essential topics of study are systematically removed from their school libraries and classrooms by illiterate religious fundamentalists and corrupt politicians?

In lamenting the sorry state of our public schools, and the many failures in our American educational system, analysts have blamed just about everything—television, video games, teachers, parents, the home, society, politics, lack of funding, and “the younger generation.” And all of these may indeed be factors. But few seem to have considered that perhaps the entire concept of education as it is presented today may be fundamentally at fault.

And I think this is the core of the problem. School and education is no longer viewed by students, or the public, as something special, something to aspire to. Learning is seen more as a distasteful and onerous drudgery, akin to working in a factory (as in that Pink Floyd song). Something one must do, perhaps, but hardly as something one would want to do. This is clearly, an untenable situation for public education.

Harry Potter and the X-Men

And then (drum roll) along came Harry Potter! After numerous rejections by short-sighted publishers who couldn’t imagine any reader interested in stories taking place in a school, Scholastic Inc. had the good sense to publish J.K. Rowling’s delightful Harry Potter series, and the rest is history. The Harry Potter books have become the biggest-selling books of all time. With seven novels and movies, and more toys, games, clothes, ancillary books, and other tie-ins and spin-offs than you can wave a wand at, Harry Potter is the greatest literary phenomenon ever known.

And here’s the truly important thing: These books are being most eagerly read by kids! Clearly something is happening here, and understanding it may be the key to an entirely new concept in education.

Every kid (and many adults as well!) who reads Harry Potter wishes that they could attend Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. The very fact of its exclusivity makes it irresistible, to say nothing of the lure and wonder of forbidden and arcane knowledge it promises. Magic and Mysteries, spellcraft and sorcery, hidden history, secret societies, wands and wortcunning, bedknobs and broomsticks, bell, book, and candle, things that go bump in the night…everything that the mundane (“muggle,” in Rowling’s parlance) world doesn’t know about, or believe in. Hogwarts epitomizes all the reasons why Halloween and Dia de los Muertos are the most popular holidays of the year for kids (and many grown-ups!). Embracing the dark, rather than fearing it, is exhilarating and liberating!

Consider also the enduring popularity of the “X-Men” comics, Marvel’s best-selling series—which began publishing in 1962, and have spawned an ongoing animated TV series and three feature-length movies. As with the Harry Potter stories, the X-Men saga centers around a very special school for mutant misfits with various uncanny abilities and powers: “Professor Charles Xavier’s School for Gifted Children.”

Mystique

Young people find the lure of secret societies and esoteric associations irresistible. They yearn to be on the “inside” of an exclusive group, to access forbidden knowledge and arcane secrets unknown to their parents and their contemporaries. “Knowledge is power,” they know, and “with great power comes great responsibility.” The enormous appeal of the classical “Hero’s Quest” in literature and films bespeaks its intense relevance to every adolescent. They identify with Harry Potter; Frodo Baggins; Luke Skywalker; Dorothy Gale of Kansas and Oz; Peter, Susan, Edmund and Lucy of Narnia—and every other young hero and heroine of every story, as they discover who they truly are, and what they are truly here for. For the Quest is always and ultimately to discover one’s own life mission and destiny.

And every Hero’s Quest story begins with a wise mentor figure—the “Wizard”—imparting crucial knowledge to the young hero that he or she must know in order to fulfill their destiny. And this is where the idea of a very special and exclusive school of mystical knowledge and arcane wisdom enters the picture.

One of the most learned men of all time, Confucius (551-479 bce), became the first private teacher in history. Such was his reputation, that people sought him out to teach their sons. Confucius took any student eager to learn, and along with the regular subjects, taught his personal wisdoms on developing responsibility and moral character through discipline.

In ancient Greece, (long acknowledged as the seat of philosophy and wisdom), the value of educating their children was recognized very early on, with some households engaging their own teacher. Through the first centuries ce, Roman families often had educated slaves to teach their children. (“Teaching Through the Ages:” http://historyeducationinfo.com/edu1.htm)

The first known school of philosophy (meaning “love of wisdom”) was Plato’s Academy in Athens, founded in 385 bce. Plato was Socrates’ greatest student. Later, in 335 bce, Aristotle opened his “Peripatetic” philosophical school at the Athens Lyceum. Other “Mystery Schools” were founded by Pythagoras and others.

In fact, all early schools and academies were really exclusive “Mystery Schools,” and in that very mystique lay their appeal.

In the Middle Ages, the Roman Catholic Church took charge of teaching the sons of nobility, entrusting that charge to monasteries or specially designated learning “centres.” Many of these centres evolved into the distinguished learning institutions of today, including Cambridge University, whose first college, St. Peter’s, was founded in 1284.

With the establishment of higher learning in the early 1700s, the curriculum of college preparatory and universities broadened considerably. However not all things were equal inside the schoolroom. In 1749, Ben Franklin’s concept of an academy of learning consisted of an English school and a Classical school. The Latin master had a title, and the English master had none. The Latin master made twice the salary, and the English master had twice the students.

High school, originally known as “terminal” school, came into existence in 1821, in Boston, for boys 12 years and older. Once more, law entered the educational fray, dictating that towns of over 500 families must have a high school with the prescribed curriculum. Towns with over 4,000 inhabitants were required to teach Latin and Greek, as well as other extra subjects.

Agriculture boarding schools enjoyed a very brief existence in the 1820s and 30s, having been established in the country to fulfill the needs of “idle and morally exposed” children from the city.

At the beginning of the 20th century, parents and the general public began to demand more practical and useful curriculums, and in so doing, may have helped elevate teaching to a respectable profession. (Ibid.)

Unfortunately, this demand and trend towards a universal education diluted the mystique of learning itself. When a thing is available to everyone and mandated by law, it ceases to be regarded as something special; it becomes “common.” What is needed today, I believe, is to restore the wonder and mystique that once surrounded the very idea of education.

The Grimoire and the Grey School

In 2002, I convened the Grey Council—an assembly of two dozen respected and learned mages and sages, elders and teachers. Council members follow many different paths, but all hope to spark the imagination, beauty, and power of the minds of seekers everywhere. We worked together over the year 2003 to weave our best lessons into the Grimoire for the Apprentice Wizard (New Page Books, 2004). It was specifically designed for all the Harry Potter readers who might want to seek further, and explore the genuine “Wisdom of the Ages,” as once taught in the ancient Mystery Schools, and imbedded in traditional “Classical Education” into more recent times. For wizard literally means “wise one,” and wizardry is, pure and simply, wisdom. Much like the term philosopher means “lover of wisdom.” And it certainly seems that the present world could use a great deal more wisdom!

The Grimoire, however, was only the first phase of a long-range Vision to make available the Wisdom of the Ages for a new generation and a new Millennium. It is both an essential handbook of Apprentice-level Wizardry (like the Boy Scout Handbook) and a basic textbook for a full seven-year academic curriculum of Wizardly studies. Thus, its lessons begin very simply and become more complex as students advance.

The book was an instant best-selling success, encouraging our publishers, New Page Books, to commission several sequels and spin-offs, of which six have since been published, with many more in process. The next phase of the Vision was to establish an on-line School of Wizardry to serve as a larger context for the Grimoire and wisdom teachings, and where all the readers whose appetites had been whetted could go for further study.

And so, on August 1, 2004, the Grey School of Wizardry opened its virtual doors. Designed for students of all ages over 11, the Grey School provides an extensive seven “year-level” program of studies, at an Apprenticeship level. Graduates will be certified as “Journeyman Wizards.”

The Grey School was incorporated as a non-profit educational institution in the State of California on March 14, 2005. And on September 20, 2007, we received our IRS Determination Letter for our 501(c)(3) for educational and charitable purposes.

Curriculum

Taking the Grimoire’s basic curriculum as a starting point, the Grey School of Wizardry offers additional classes, lessons and practical exercises, links to other websites with specialized materials, etc., and many color graphics and images which could not be reproduced in the printed book. Class materials and interactive lessons are designed and taught by highly-qualified faculty members and lectors, presently numbering about three dozen. Over 275 classes are currently available, in 16 Departments, and new ones are being added continually.

Courses offered in the Grey School provide a grounded classical education in history, mythology, geography, mathematics, literature, natural history, general science, astronomy, chemistry, physics, zoology, botany, and even Latin—with ancient Greek , Egyptian, and Sumerian to be offered shortly. The performing arts are included as well, with classes in poetry, music, theater, and illusion. The wonderful thing is, with the mystique of enrolling in a magickal “School of Wizardry,” our students are eagerly studying all these subjects which would bore them to tears if they were taking them in a mundane public school!

Social Interaction

The Grey School is highly interactive, and includes not just academic materials, but four Elemental “Houses” (Sylphs, Salamanders, Undines, and Gnomes) in which young students may socialize with each other. Each House has a faculty Head and student Prefect to moderate the forums, etc. A similar set of four Elemental Lodges (Winds, Flames, Waters, and Stones) have been created for adult students, who now comprise ¾ of the student body. Our students’ ages range from 10 to 73.

We have a diverse selection of social forums, clubs, and a student-run newspaper. The forums provide a venue for people to gather. The Great Hall includes areas for General Chatter, Challenges, a Bardic Circle, and much more. Office forums provide access to the Administrators and other positions. Houses and Lodges have their own forums, plus separate Youth and Adult forums for mingling. There are Departmental and other forums as well.

Clubs allow members to explore interest in a special area outside of classes. They also provide venue for students and faculty to socialize, share information and plan projects related to their club’s theme. Every club has a Faculty Advisor as well as student officers.

The Grey School publishes a quarterly student-run school magazine, Whispering Grey Matters, with its own forum area in the Great Hall. All students may submit their original work (essays, poetry, photos, artwork, etc.) for consideration. Staff members also gather news from the Administration, Departments, clubs, and other sources.

As of the end of November, 2007, the student body (1,000 students) represents 49 of the United States (all but Delaware), a number of US military bases, two American Embassies, and 22 countries: Australia, Austria, Canada (8 provinces), Chile, Denmark, England, France, Germany, Greece, Guam, Ireland, Mauritius, New Zealand, Puerto Rico, Rumania, Scotland, South Africa, Thailand, Turkey, the United Kingdom, the United States, and Venezuela. Our northernmost student lives in Fairbanks, Alaska, while our southernmost resides in Santiago, Chile.

The Future

In January of 2006, the Headmaster and Headmistress toured Australia on behalf of the Grey School, and the following July the School held its first annual Conclave at a park in Oregon. Four regional Conclaves were held in 2007, and more are planned for 2008. Other Grey School assemblies, events and presentations are happening all around the U.S., and in other countries as well. The Grey School is really taking off!

Many students and faculty members are now beginning to dream seriously of a physical campus—ideally a castle like Hogwarts, or a large country estate like Prof. Xavier’s. A perfect facility could be an old monastery or retreat center, providing classrooms, dormitories, offices, staff residences, kitchen, dining room, meeting hall, library, laboratories, gardens, etc.

The enrollment and tuition fees for the Grey School are very low, as we have wanted to make this education available to all including impoverished students. We even have a specially-funded scholarship program for those who are unable to meet even these low rates. Additional funding has come through small donations, sales of school-related items, and royalties on Grey School textbooks that are being published by new Page Books. But stipends for teachers are currently all less than $200 per month, and all are greatly underpaid for their dedication and work. We would like to compensate our faculty more appropriately, and we would like to acquire a suitable facility for future offices, classrooms, and residences.

As Oprah Winfrey said about her new school for impoverished girls in South Africa: “I understand that many in the school system and out feel that I’m going overboard, and that’s fine. This is what I want to do. I wanted to take girls with that ‘It’ quality, and give them an opportunity to make a difference in the world.” (Newsweek, Jan. 8. 2007)

And this is what we want to do with the Grey School of Wizardry—to find students who have unique potential that is not being addressed by their experiences in public schools, and give them the inspiration and information that will enable them to go out and make a real difference in the world. This is true education. For the difference between wisdom and stupidity is really all about considering the consequences—”unto the seventh generation,” as the Hopi proverb says.

In closing, here’s what one of our students had to say about the Grey School Vision:

Just Imagine…
By Stacy, Prefect of the Society of the Four Winds

Ten years from now: Over a hundred have graduated to Journeymen Wizard, and another thousand Apprentices continue in training. The pendants we wear are no longer merely logos of the school we attend, but the symbol of our Order. And our symbol is not just recognizable to those whom we call brother and sister, but to the greater world, both Magickal and Mundane. We are respected as honored and reliable sources of wisdom, guidance and hope to the communities we live in. We are recognized in congress, the military, in covens and conclaves, and through our deeds we are recognized as an organization devoted to helping influence the evolution of the world.

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Free Spirit Guide Meditation

Posted by Paula Kawal on 08 May 08 - 0 Comments

Over the last month, I have been fully stepping into working as a professional intuitive. The evolution has been interesting as I’ve learned to meld this work into harmonious interaction with my NLP and coaching skills. Throughout the course of this synthesis, everything within me coalesced into a deep understanding of who I and and what I am here to do.

With this congruency I’ve walked forward and have received more than I could have asked for in every respect.

I have a highly conscious friend who is fond of saying that the people you interact with will teach you what they need from you…this absolutely true!

In working with people, one of the things that has consistently come up is the desire to have an in-person relationship with their Spirit Guides. However, they have no idea where to begin.

This is what prompted me to create a free Spirit Guide Meditation. I wanted to offer some support to the people who order readings and so I’m happy to announce and launch the recording, here…on the blog.

Free Spirit Guide Meditation

This meditation is designed to clean your chakra system, achieve a place of connection and openness with your guides as well as travel with the information they share and fully integrate it from the highest spiritual levels into the environmental levels of your physical experience.

With deep love and appreciation, I offer this to my readers, clients and to anyone seeking assistance with connecting to their guides :)

Be sure to drop me a line to let me know how it is going!

Love and light,

PK


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Engaging Negativity

Ever wonder whether or not you are responsible for your choices if you accidentally engage with negativity? I mean, shouldn’t ignorance save us on some level from suffering severe consequences if we unintentionally make a bad choice?

Well the answer to that is if we make the choice, we suffer the consequence. Unintentional or not, you are responsible for the decisions that you make, even if you had the best of intentions when you made it. Hidden within the beauty of the accident however…is the ability to make another choice and to learn from the experience.

The Quija Board

When I was fourteen years old my cousin from Connecticut flew out by himself to spend part of the summer with us. He was like an older brother in many ways, as our families had lived together on and off throughout our childhood.

Getting Bored

Well, it wasn’t long before we started to get bored. We had taken hikes, seen the sites and spent enough time together to remember all the stuff about one another that made us crazy, so as most teen-aged kids eventually do…we decided that taking ourselves to the mall would bring some much needed entertainment into situation.

The Mall

On this shopping excursion we hit the game isles looking for something to do when a most unusual board game caught our attention. There right in the middle of the isle were Quija boards.

We looked at them with curiosity. Eureka! This simply had to be entertaining!

We were absolutely certain that Quija boards were nothing more than a game. So we took one home to have fun with later.

The Game

There really wasn’t much to the game, which consisted of a board and a pointer device. We placed it on each others knees, put our hands on the pointer and started asking questions. Some of the answers were funny, some of them curious and then they started to get a little creepy.

Slowly but surely we became more and more uncomfortable…until we decided to ask just who we were talking to. The energy started to feel very heavy and dark as the entity gave us its reply and identified itself as an angel of darkness.

That was enough to prompt us to end the game, which had seemed like such a harmless thing to begin with.

We stood looking at each other shifting uncomfortably, while we tried to laugh the whole thing off as a figment of our imaginations…despite our best efforts, the dark feelings and heaviness remained prompting the decision to retire the game to my bedroom closet shelf for the rest of the evening.

When my mother came home, we told her of our experience with the board. Needless to say she was not happy about the events that had unfolded in her absence…although she didn’t say much, I would come to find out later that she was prepared for the worst.

Psychic Attack

That night as I got ready for bed I started to feel less and less safe. It was as if someone or thing was watching me.

My room, which was normally my sanctuary began to adopt and unfriendly feel and resonated with an energy that I actually disliked. I’ve always been someone who doesn’t believe in darkness and if you ask me today…I’d still say I don’t give it much attention if any at all.

This being my natural tendency it was really strange for me to feel what I was feeling on that night regarding my room.

I decided to ignore it though…and went to bed.

I turned off the lights and the energy emanating from my closet grew immediately more intense. I turned my back on the closet and attempted sleep but the feeling of being unsafe persisted to where I was having difficulty. I am a person who is practically narcoleptic when I am tired though, so eventually…despite the difficulty at first, I fell asleep.

My dreams were dark and threatening…literal night terrors and I found myself sitting bolt upright, facing the direction of the closet, drenched in cold sweat.

It felt as if something was literally out to get me. That something was meeting me in my dream time and we were in a literal show down.

I got up, terrified. My legs shook as I opened the closet door. You can’t hurt me, I told it as I grabbed the box and took it out to the kitchen table. Where I intended to leave it for the night.

Soon, I was awoken again this time sitting bolt upright and staring at the opposite side of the room. I was utterly confused at this point, because I knew I had removed the board…but there it was, sitting on my shelf.

I took it out again and my cousin stopped me. He had been sleeping on the couch in the living room right next to the kitchen. He told me that he could not sleep with it there and literally begged me not to leave it on the table. At this point my mother appeared in her doorway. I felt a deep sense of hatred begin to ooze out from the board. It was about 5am and it was garbage day.

The Trash: My Way of Saying No to Darkness

Making up my mind to be certain that no one else had this kind of experience I grabbed the box and began to take it outside to the trash. My mother stopped me and thrust a box of sea salt in my direction. I took the board out to the trash can that stood in front of our house, the sun was not yet visible but it was growing more light. Smashing the board over my knee I told the demon the game was over and poured the sea salt over its broken remains while holding the intent for this portal to close.

I stayed up, camped out on our porch waiting for the trucks to take it away while my mom sprinkled sea salt in a stream all around the house. When the trucks came and took it away I knew it was finished and I went back inside and actually got some sleep.

Consequences of Choices

I was exhausted for several days after this experience. Later on in life I would come to find the scarring in the energy body surrounding my seventh chakra due to this event. It was a simple experience, a bad choice, with some very real consequences. Many kids play with stuff they don’t understand. My story in not at all uncommon.

Fortunately, I was strong enough to face the negativity I engaged with head on…my refusal to acknowledge the power of darkness and my absolute faith in the power of light really helped me here.

When I think back on this experience however, I feel doubtful that it would have happened at all if I (at the time) had possessed a conscious relationship with my spirit guides.

They were prompting me and trying to steer me away from it, but I consciously dismissed this as a kind of childish fear on my part. Seeing how at that age, we really want to be grown up…it is an easy trap to fall into.

Had I been consciously aware though of how my guides communicate with me…I would not have thought of it in that way.

Developing a Conscious Awareness of Your Guide Team

It took me a long time to realize that I had guides and even longer to learn how to communicate with them much of which I learned by trial and error over a time of intense spiritual practice.

It sure would have been nice to have something to start out with!

Kick-Start Your Relationship with Your Guides

With that in mind, I’d like to offer a more empowered place to start by opening up to you my here to order!

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