When she told me about Reconnective Healing I was of course, immediately interested   We scheduled a time for the healing and Jenny asked me to think about what I would like healed.

I explored this for the week prior to the session.  I have no physical problems really.  I have always been healthy and strong.  I am usually the one taking care of everyone else because I just didn’t get sick, or if I DID, I didn’t get it as badly as everyone else.

Emotionally, I couldn’t find anything within the scope of my awareness that needed healing at that point.

I asked Source to reveal what I should work on sometime before the session.

When the day came to have the session I knew what I would heal.  It was more of an idea, a notion or way of thinking than a physical or emotional thing.  I wanted to heal the illusion that I needed to DO anything to BE spiritual.  I felt it was time to put an end to long meditations, rituals and all manner of complex procedure to get into the free flow of the spiritual state.  I wanted to just intend it and BE there.

So the day of the healing Jenny called me and I  stated my intent, holding it – we ended the call and I proceded to meditate on my end, staying open and receptive to what I may experience while Jenny performed the healing.

What I personally experienced while she healed me was centered within my heart, third eye and crown chakras.  My chest grew very warm and I saw white and gold flashes of light through out the process.

In the weeks to follow I was physically, emotionally and spiritually releasing.  The Nature of this release was challenging as it contained what I call collective issues that I’ve bought into and operated from through many, many lifetimes along with a belief that we have to work hard at spirituality.

After the release I started to notice how easily I slipped into state.  Walking, breathing, just thinking about connecting to the Akashic Records, or Source and the Angels was enough.  I’ve found the gap between my normal functioning state and these elevated High Vibrational States to be very tight and natural like walking across the room rather than forced like trying to cross the Grand Canyon.

What an illusion to shed!!!

The power at the heart of every healing modality that I’ve experienced has always been intent, whether it is coaching, Akashic Records work or healing with the Angels the bottom line that holds it together and actually produces change is always intent and the magic of it often manifests even more greatly when working with someone else who helps you hold and magnify that intent.

Love and thanks to Jenny for introducing me to this great modality

If you’re not already familiar with her – check her out at http://jennymannion.com.

• Take a swim in the ocean or a saltwater bath.
• See yourself surrounding by a purifying white light with a ring of ultraviolet fire around it keeping out all of the negativity.
• Stay hydrated, hold the thought of purification and drink lots of water.
• Sit out in the sun and ask Archangel Michael to clear your emotional body and etheric grid of all imbalance and disturbance.
• Burn Dragonsblood incense to clear your space, use a singing bowl or ring bells.

All of these methods are useful for clearing a lower energetic resonance and programming in new higher vibrational energy, be sure to hold the intent of what you would like to achieve before you begin a spiritual protection practice such as clarity or peace.

This model is very powerful for creating change in any area of life however I’m being urged to specifically illustrate how to use it to navigate job loss – as this is a subject that is of real concern to the collective consciousness at this time.

Job loss in particular challenges our sense of security which is a basic human need – however, you will learn through this model, where to place your sense of security so that it can not be threatened by losing your job.

Lets begin by laying out the model (which is a self assessment tool that you can you use to identify which level you are in and what you must release to get to the next level) and then we will talk about where most people in job loss will start and what the most powerful way for them to move through the situation will be.

The first level is Life is Happening to Me. In this stage you feel victimized and helpless…as if you have absolutely no power and that something else has to happen in your external environment in order to make a change. To move out of this stage you have to give up blame.

Life is Happening BY ME

The second level is Life is Happening By Me. In this stage you will feel that you have complete control over everything and that it will happen because you will make it happen. This is the highly driven personal action stage. In order to move out of this stage you have to relinquish control.

Life is Happening THROUGH ME

The third level is Life is Happening Through Me. In this stage you feel that you are here for a reason and that you have a purpose. You have gifts, you ‘re in touch with your Higher Power. You trust that you will get what you need, you don’t even have to try that hard to get it and know that worry just cuts you off from Source. In order to move out of this level you need to release separation.

Life is Happening AS ME

The fourth level of consciousness is Life is Happening As Me. In this stage you feel that there is no separation between you and Spirit and you and others. You show up without the beliefs that keep you separate so you are operating from a perspective of compassion in which you don’t necessarily feel that you need to change others or the environment because you see yourself as an extension of it.

When a person loses their job they are most likely going to start in the Life is Happening To Me, level of consciousness and they may feel like they were just dealt a physical blow.  It is the sense of being attacked by life on an unseen level which tends to create victims of us…in order to move beyond this stage we need to understand that it is not personal, we don’t need to hang the blame on someone or something, we are not really under attack – things are simply changing and we need to learn to flow along with -  instead of resisting that change.  People in general don’t appreciate change, especially change that threatens their sense of security, however all change carries within it opportunities for new growth and provides a path of opening within our lives that is ours to make of it – what we will.   If  we befriend change (no matter what it looks like on the outside) we can use the energy of it to take us where we want to go.

So with that in mind, the next best level of consciousness to move into is Life is Happening Through Me.  Once you are no longer taking it personally, you realize that you don’t need to engage in resistance as a bid for control over your situation.  Getting your old job back and putting everything back the way it was is simply not an available option for you at this time and you start to open to the idea that there might be a good reason for this shift to be taking place and you seek what you can learn from this experience.  Perhaps this was a pretty good position for you, most likely though, you could think of some things you would like to change, new areas of growth you’re interested in pursuing, or situations you’d like to avoid.  As you focus on extracting the learnings – you begin to get clear on what it is that you want to create in the space that vacating your old job has left you.  This space is a great gift – because space is what we need to grow something new.

As you step further and further into the idea of what it is that you really, really want in a job…you begin to see that your old position really wasn’t that great of a match and an excitement about finding something more fulfilling to all the different parts of your self emerges.  This excitement encourages a sense of gratitude to rise up within you toward the original loss as you fully embrace at very deep levels just what an opportunity this is to create a livelihood that allows you to be more authentically who you really are.

From this mental positioning you enter the Life is Happening As Me level of consciousness, fully accepting yourself as the creator and participant of circumstances all working toward your Highest Good.  From this place of ownership, you are able to harness the power of your consciousness into action.

With your knowing in place (like a map before you) you engage the Life is Happening By Me level of consciousness, channeling enormous amounts of energy and enthusiasm into the necessary action oriented steps it will take to get you there.  Confidently creating, your new way of working in the world

So is job loss a disastrous event or an opportunity to work out of your Highest Path and Purpose?  Are we empowered regardless of what is happening on the physical level of our lives?  My answer to this question is….YES, YES, YES!!!

I believe that it is our level of consciousness that determines the answers to these questions…not the actual circumstances that we are experiencing in our lives.  What we think and feel about what we encounter in our day is where we hold our power, when we get the inside to line up with the goals of our physical, outer world needs – we’re pretty unstoppable!!!

This is what I’ve lived in my life and I’ve seen countless clients living it as well.

All my love,

PK

Let me just start off by saying I’ve had a lot of jobs in different industries and I’ve been fired, given a “time out” and told that I had to work from the office or resign just to name a few of the “highlights”…LOL!  I guess this could be looked at as a major catastrophe, or that I had somehow failed.  Closer to the truth was that these were opportunities and they kept me moving in a direction that was more in alignment with who I am.

I was really out of alignment, for example, when I got fired from the Downtown Hilton shortly after I moved to Seattle.  The hotel did not treat people the way I thought they should and their policy of overselling rooms put me in a values conflict every single day that I worked there.  As a result I drug myself to the hotel day after day and couldn’t show up on time to save my life – my inability to be on time was a sign and symptom of how wrong a match this job was for me and so when the manager fired me because I was habitually late there was almost a sense of relief mixed in with my hurt and fear.  I knew I didn’t belong at this place but needed the job and didn’t know what I was looking for.  The motivation to go find something else wasn’t going to come without a little outside help   To some of you this will sound very familiar!!!

I had other experiences that were similar – however, the next example I am going to give you is a little different.

I had a job I loved more than any of the others (up til that point) working for a man I respected in the floor coverings industry when I became pregnant with my first child.  We decided that when the baby came, I would work from at home.  I told him that my husband and I had looked into the cost of childcare and decided that I would need to work at home if I was going to stay in the job.

I was a one woman office whose time spent as a manager allowed me to “mind meld and anticipate needs” it was the big joke with his wife who would come in and ask if he had consulted his brain (me) for permission to place anything on his schedule or tamper with anything else going on in the day to day business of the office.  As you can imagine, being so highly dependent on my skills, my boss wanted to give the working at home thing a go.

Spirit had other ideas for both of us – because neither of us would have made a change as long as we were together.

It wasn’t long before the Higher ups intervened through the office phone system.  The parent company refused to ring the phones over to my home number and my boss who was always on the road was left with no one to handle the phones while he was in the field.  Soon no one could get through and I was given a choice.

He called me in knowing what my answer would be but didn’t feel there was an alternative, he had to have someone for the phones and didn’t have the budget for another salary…I was going to have to come back into the office and daycare my son (which we couldn’t afford to do) or I was going to lose my job.

I felt so trapped and betrayed!  Why was this happening to me?  I wondered, signing my resignation, I stuffed my tears down as far as I could get them to go and wondered if we would make it financially.  While at home with my son I started to explore my interests and eventually started a handmade soap and lotion company.  Two years later, while I was pregnant with my second child that same boss called me to say he had a job that he thought I would be good at.  I asked if I could work from at home and he said, absolutely.

I worked side by side with this man for years and didn’t know anything about his passions.  He was inviting me to help him live them by promoting his family’s Southern Gospel group.  I was shocked that he could sing – and when I listened to the recording I felt my Spirit pull strongly toward the position.  I didn’t know anything about Southern Gospel Music, booking a singing group let alone managing one but before it was all over I would be a marketer, promoter, booking agent, publicity agent and band manager all in one.

I sold my soap company, Elysian Dream, in record time and started working for the group.  Within a few months, Spirit manifested a contact with one of the top 3 recording studios in Southern Gospel Music, a year later my boss and every member of his group took a leap of faith and moved from Washington State to Tennessee, almost a year to the date after their move they recorded a project at the studio with whom we had the contact and I found myself helping them negotiate a 10 year recording contract with the Producer who had been our greatest mentor for the last two years.

After helping my friends achieve their life purpose I realized I had hit on something that resonated deeply within my Being and started exploring myself from the inside out to more fully understand how to manifest this calling outside of the role of a marketer (as Spirit was calling me away from my ego, which was deeply embedded in that aspect of the job).

This experience was the pointer for what I do today – following the passions and purpose of my own Soul.  What looked like loss through the previous experiences was really an opportunity to sync up with something greater – my Highest Path and Purpose.  With each experience I learned and grew and began to understand where my Soul was trying to go.

If I hadn’t been fired and given my other experiences,  I would have been complacent and happy to stay where I was.  However, what looks like a terrible event may just be the push that you need to have the freedom to explore what you really, really want in life because all of a sudden you haven’t got as much to lose.  Many, many of my lightworker friends who were hearing their purpose but were paralyzed like a deer in headlights by the security of their income are facing similar pushes and shoves as the universe urges them to awaken!!!

I wonder if Susan Boyle (the latest unexpected superstar of Britain’s Got Talent) would have auditioned for the show if she had been comfortably employed with her life completely on track?

Susan Boyle – Britain’s Got Talent

Is it scary??? Yes…but it is also exciting and if you breathe into that fear it will transform into an energy that moves you toward the path you are meant to be on!

Nowadays I expect good to come from my storms…how about you?

My Mom Before the Healing

My Mom visited me over a two week period of time in which change was the name of the game the universe and I were playing with one another.  At the time that she arrived, we were making room for the addition of a puppy to our family and my husband was scheduled to leave 3 days later on a work related trip to remote parts of New Mexico.

My Mom After the Healing

I found my Mom’s presence to be grounding at a time when our family’s rhythms were being thrown off and I surrendered to the fact that everything else in my life would have to exist without me for a time.

Believe it or not, my business did not come crashing down on my head while I ignored it – in fact, my subscriber level really grew while I was busy with what life was bringing my way

I also had the great opportunity to become very introspective.  Most likely it was the influence and close proximity of the energy that houses my oldest physical relationship in life (that of my mother).

I found doorways to explore and opportunities for healing that simply were not available to me before.  I transformed old thought patterns and born of that was one of the most impacting healings I’ve ever given.

My Mom’s health has not been the best over the past 10 or so years and lately she had been noticing her body going in a downward direction.  I invited her to come and visit, she worked out with us, went for walks and really worked on pushing the envelope of what she’s been able to do physically.

We worked spiritually on clearing negative influences and she made amazing progress in just a two week period of time.  Toward the end of the trip she wanted to get her hair done, however when we tried to make an appointment with the local stylists I use, no one was available.

Spirit prompted me, YOU cut her hair.  I’ve never been through any training – so this didn’t really make sense – however I knew I could do it, I understood the healing that would come, surrendered and became the channel for her transformation.

Where to cut, at what angle to cut, how to make the hair fall and at what levels was simply downloaded through spirit into my hands.  My mind was completely by-passed in this process as I meditated on only one thing – bringing the energy and vitality of my Mother’s Soul back to the surface of her physical being.

She came back to life right before my eyes like a giant inhale of love and I could tell from the way she closed her eyes during the cutting process that she was receiving Divine Love from Source.

There are many ways to heal energetically.  Hairstylists are healers, so are cooks, massage therapists, musicians, artists, teachers and many, many others.  We heal with our words, our thoughts, emotions, physical actions, ideas and our smiles.  There are hundreds of things you do each and every day that provide an opportunity or window to heal yourself and others and there are many, many, beautiful modalities and opportunities to gain contact with spirit that pass you by each and everyday.  Some of them you notice, others not.  Healers learn a healing modality to become acquainted with – the noticing.

In my next posts I will review the courses that I’ve learned for you so that you can get a feel for just how many methods for spiritual learning and healing there are.  I love to learn – and I intend to take many more trainings   As I do, I will talk about them here.

Coming up are my reviews of NLP Coach training, NLP Practitioner and Master Practitioner training, Soul Realignment Practitioner™ training, the Sedona Method, Financial Alchemy and Dancing with Source™ to name a few!

Until then keep exploring all the everyday ways we heal!

Angel Blessings,

PK

Author’s Note:  The following post was inspired by questions asked of me by Albert Foong of the Urban Monk.  Thank you Albert for your questioning and seeking of the Truth

On Halloween or Samhain there is a belief that remains constant regardless of how you may celebrate the holiday – this is the understanding that on October 31st – the veils that typically keep us from seeing the world of energy and spirit and keep us firmly rooted in our 3rd dimensional reality grow thin even for those who typically don’t experience such things.

In ages past, it was also thought that this made people particularly vulnerable to negative entities who use this unaccustomed sight to generate and feed off of the fear energy of the those unlucky enough to encounter them.

This kind of thinking still survives, only now it lives in the collective subconscious mind where it mostly remains out of sight and unnoticed until something stimulates it into action.

So let me stimulate you by talking about the biggest beastie of them all – Lucifer himself.  When it comes to fear-based promotion, this guy has got a great publicist – after all what could be more terrifying than the very personification of evil itself?

So who is he and what does he really want?

The answer is simple.  Lucifer is an Archangel who was given a pathway to become one of humanities greatest teachers.  Stay with me now…

Why?

Because within our evolution came a time when our third energy center became very active within us. We moved up from the level of survival and simple pleasures and now were beginning to understand that we could influence and impact the world and situations around us. We could bend nature and others to our will.  As a result, individuality began to step forward above the group or collective thinking and as it began to take over the control booth a funny thing happened…we fell into judgment.

Now during this time the lower energy centers were in control – and we basically operated from two principles – moving away from pain or moving toward pleasure.  Only now there was another element getting mixed in -  what we believed would get us pleasure (or what I call projected into the future pleasure) – and this thing came to be called desire or what I want.  Soon all things pleasurable became good, anything that promoted our sense of will was good and anything that stood in the way of it was bad.

We chose this method of learning so that we could fully experience our individual impact on the whole.  In the Archangelic realms – plans were made to support us in this learning so that we could fully explore our own power and impact through our third energy center.

The Archangelic realms mirrored our internal split – many of the Angels were assigned to be space holders for Divine energies to support us in understanding and finding our way back to Oneness.  Others, were given the job of taking on negative energies in order to mirror to us our learning choices.  These were called by history – fallen angels – however they are merely high level dark teachers wearing masks.

So who is the Devil really?

He is the essence of Duality – a paradox – he is everything scary and he is everything Light.  The best way to consider it is through the concept of a spectrum – what you see and experience of him is determined by the vibration you are humming along at when you encounter him.

If you meet up with him when you are in a vibration of fear – he’s the scariest thing on cloven feet you’ve ever seen.  From the vibration of unconditional love he is the Angel of Light – the most beautiful of Archangels – the one who sang over the throne of God.

Some angels hold the space of Light,  fallen angels have followed us down into the darkness and will not come back until we all choose the light – this is how much they love us.

Lucifer’s job is to reflect to us the darkness that lives in our hearts – so that we may choose to live in love – this is what he does.  In order to do this he has to stay rooted in Source – otherwise it would be an impossibility to be meet us at each level within the spectrum.

What is he like?

I checked in with Lucifer to have a little chat before writing this post.  He is very funny!  As you can imagine he is also very charming.  I like him a lot.  It IS difficult to maintain the vibration necessary to see him as the angel of light rather than something of darkness as it requires you to consciously disconnect from the collective belief system and several times during the our conversation I was prompted to raise my vibration.  Like I said, it’s not easy – but it can be done!

His message is that he is really working FOR you.

He really appreciates anyone who can see him through the eyes of love as it is such a rare treat!  When you realize that Lucifer is really working FOR you rather than against you – what on Earth is there to possibly be afraid of???

So my dears, be Light-based tonight.  Enter your heart centers, open your seventh chakra’s, raise your vibrations and have yourself a wonderfully fun and Happy Halloween!

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Last week I had a conversation with Source and the Angels that has changed my life.  I matter of factly told them I was done with illusion that I only wanted to live in Divine Truth and to – Bring it on!!!

I’ve been warned that I might want to use a little caution with this kind of enthusiastic statement – however, I am not a very cautious Spiritual Seeker

Well Source said, “O.K.” and it has been a pretty wild ride ever since!

This next story is a teaching about how we can take a step beyond forgiveness with the people that have hurt us most in life.

I was a fly on the wall observing a meeting most of us are unaware even occurs.  Here in this room sat my Higher Self,  Source the Archangels and my Guides discussing life lessons and hiring participants with whom I would dance in my current incarnation.  The candidates were reviewed according to the level of complement for what each Soul was working on – and that turned out to be quite the detailed process.

“What am I observing?” I whispered to Archangel Gabriel.  He simply smiled and said, “The truth”.

I returned my gaze to the meetings before me and a Soul I recognized came forward and was asked if he would be willing to play a role in the life situation displaying before him.  His gaze was cast toward a screen – I turned to watch with him and saw his beautiful Soul willingly take on a negativity that instantly transformed him from the very presence of beauty to something slinking in the darkness.

“Are you willing to play this part?” he was asked by the council.  “Are you willing to take this job in order to help the One before you evolve during it’s incarnation?”

“Yes.” he said gazing at me with such Love that my heart nearly burst – tears wet his eyes and with this answer he accepted the mission.

I began to cry tears of gratitude – it never occurred to me that we could be so loved and so supported by other Souls that they would be willing turn themselves into something despised by others in order to help move us toward our Highest Path and Purpose.

“Gabriel” I said, “is this the true Nature of Darkness.”  “Yes.” He said, “Even the Dark Teachers work for the Light – they simply take a different path to get there.”

When I consider the Dark Teachers in my life (the people I’ve encountered who’ve pushed me to grow with the energies of pain or fear) I’m now grateful for the lessons they taught me – because I understand what it must have taken for them to move themselves out of the Light and into extremely low vibrational energy in order to aid me with my life lessons.  Only the greatest kind of Love and Authority can produce Courage of this nature – and I find myself wondering if I have what it takes to make that kind of sacrifice?  I’ve certainly changed my mind about a lot of things due to this experience and I now know that Dark Teachers are more evolved than most of us believe

I’ve also come to recognize that along the way I made the decision that I no longer wanted to learn through darkness in my life.  I realized that I had an option and that I was drawing negative learning experiences to myself because at that time – I believed that I needed them.  That all ended when I chose to create positive learnings instead.

When we as a collective decide we no longer need darkness as a vehicle through which to receive our lessons and experiences – the Dark Teachers will be able to take off their costumes and return to the Light

Maybe it’s a strange idea that they are here because we want them to be here – but I think it makes sense…afterall we ARE that powerful!

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I haven’t been posting this week due to the profundity of my most recent experiences. I made a vow to focus my energy and intent on my personal relationship with Source and the Beings of Light that assist me in life and when I try to write about what has happened over the last week, all words seem to fall short of an accurate description.

One of these experiences however, I feel compelled to share, whether or not the words I use here fall short of actually conveying to you the magnitude of the process to which I was participant and witness.

The Archangel Gabriel has been working with me in a very personal way this week. He has shown me processes, systems, worked with me on illusions and abundance to name a few. I often do energy balancing on the treadmill, but this week I have been doing a lot more than usual. The balancing I do happens both before and during my workout and this day was no exception. I worked out and had a particularly enlightening session with Gabriel, St. Mary and St. Germain – I left the gym with my vibration so high, feeling so balanced that what happened next nearly threw me for a loop.

I returned from the work out, ate lunch and knelt before my alter – starting a conversation with Source. Immediately, I felt an extremely heavy, dark weight come up from the depths of my chest. It hurt, it was constricting and I was forced to double over with it. Immediately, I began to see it emerge from the depths of my being and form a ball in my heart chakra. Gabriel was instantly beside me and I asked him about this black sphere. He told me that it was my share of all the toxicity that I have created on this earth since my first incarnation on this planet.

At this point I began to cry for her – Oh, Mama – I’m sorry - I sobbed.  It was at that moment that I felt the magnitude of it – of my own unconsciousness over the course and history of my Soul.

I turned to Gabriel and asked, What do I do with this? He replied, You make a different choice. Within seconds I knew what I needed to do. I chose to take this from the earth and give her something she could use in it’s place – I did not know how I would do it – Source provided me grace though and that was all I needed.

Gabriel held the dark sphere in the space of Divine truth for me and I passed it to the Archangel Michael. Michael used the blue fire of God to purify it – until it was ablaze with Divine Light. At that point the torch was passed to the Archangel Raphael who brought it to a state of balance and wholeness – infusing it with his green/gold light. From there it went to Uriel who filled it with the vibration of Divine Love and then on to Ariel, who with the greatest of compassion, showered the earth with this new revitalizing energy.

I felt the lightness immediately as the ball transformed and my vibration soared even higher still. Gabriel, I said, thank you.

I now understand an aspect of spiritual abundance that was previously lost on me. It’s the greatest recycling process the world has ever known – and we can all do it – all that is required is that we release – we can let go of our darkness (our illusions, programs and anything and everything that is not real) to the purification of the Light which turns it into something we can reintegrate, balance and harmonize.

All we have to do is give it to Angels, tell them we no longer desire, need or have any attachment to it and they will take care of the rest – the only caveat is that we have to be extremely honest and really want to let it go -  we can decieve ourselves and often times do – but Spirit doesn’t buy into our illusions, walks in Divine Truth and sees through us every time

What does your Spirit want to let go of?  What comes up from the depths of your being for transformation and release?

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Recently, Jeff Lilly of Druid Journal did a reading on the meaning of my name. My name and I have a long history not all of it so harmonious! It all started when we researched our names in the school library in 9th grade.

My full name at the time was Paula Jean Ambrose…which roughly means, “Little, God is Gracious or Gift of God and Immortal.” At this age I was more about feeding my ego however, than truly seeking to understand where I fit in with the “little, or small” translation of Paul.

The meaning of Paul irritated me because physically, I was the furthest thing from being “small” and the paradox of this grated against me to such a degree that I decided to create my own version of the meaning by moving my last name forward in the sequence to create, “Little, Immortal, Gift of God”. This was pleasing to the side of me that was angry about being big yet couldn’t stand to be small

Of course, the mismatch I felt regarding the meaning of my first name did not go by unnoticed by my peers. At fourteen, my already (5’7″ built German-tough) frame seemed better suited to football than modeling…a fact that everyone seemed compelled to point out to me, and actually sometimes still do come to think of it! LOL!

But here, hidden within the name I didn’t like…was an aspect to my Nature, that as Jeff would later uncover and point out to me, is one of the great gifts of my Soul.

Jeff, through his name reading, was able to dig deeper into the name energetically and I must say that my understanding of my name and gratitude for it has really grown! Thanks Jeff!

Paula is the feminine form of Paul, and dates back to Latin. Paul was a Roman surname, and meant literally “small”; it is related to paucity, pauper, few, and even foal. The phonosemantic meaning of Paul, like the peal of a bell, is of Source energy arising from a point and speading to fill a volume. As this is your first name, this is your public face, your social role.

I don’t know your middle name; but in my experience this name is frequently more inward-looking, a more personal name. It’s also often related to the name of one of your guides. For example, my middle name is Paul (and there are no coincidences, Paula!), and I have frequent contact with Apollo, and (according to Slade) my primary guide’s name is Paul also.

The name Kawal, as a last name, is related to the spiritual energy wrapped up in your ancestral guides. Now, I don’t mind telling you I had a pretty tricky time coming up with the origin of Kawal. It’s a name found in Japanese, Hindu, and Arabic, but I think it most likely that your name comes from Polish Kawal, which in modern Polish can mean either “chunk, piece. part” or refer to a sort of conspiratorial practical joke. The “piece” meaning is older, and is more likely the source of the name. Spiritually it is a balanced, even energy that emerges from confinement and, with an act of will, spreads out into space.

I note that both of these names reflect expansion, volume, and light energy. It is the name of someone on an extraordinary journey!

Jeff pinpointed many things that resonated deeply for me in his reading. My last name changing to my married name heralded a time of extreme evolution for me and in many ways amplified my budding spiritual talents…strengthening what was hidden in my first name all along…a connection with energy, a point of emergence and expansion.

This actually speaks to the healing and intuitive work that I do as well, as I focus intently on Divine Light and expand it out until I can not only see the way my client operates but can actually bring those operations to a place of expansion within them. So in a nutshell he was able to use my name to see and help me to become even more conscious of the spiritual gift that has influenced me the most throughout my life.

Also Jeff’s research is top-notch. Kawal is a difficult name to place, a mystery to even my husband’s family and up till Jeff threw his hat in the ring, all attempts to research it came up short of any satisfactory translations. If you would like to have him read your name, simply click here to go to his site

Thanks Jeff…and Namaste!

I haven’t done a tarot reading for myself in ages…so the other day I decided to whip out the cards with the idea of getting a larger picture of my current growth and development.  I went into the presence and drew three cards as follows:

The Queen of Cups

The first was the queen of cups; dreamy and contemplative, she is the very image of one who walks between the worlds. She is the stable aspect of the element of water. The still pool, deep well, the cup, the cauldron and the depths of ones own psyche. The well of the Soul that leads to our own inner mysteries.

She also embodies feminine power, exerting a seductiveness that has nothing to do with physical beauty but rather a beauty that radiates out from within…the beauty of a well developed spirit.

She is the mystery of emotions and the subconscious mind and she will reflect to you your inner-most desires and fantasies.

She calls us to discover our own depths and bring forth new qualities from within. She advocates an active and healthy inner life, exploring and experiencing feelings and information from beyond the exterior senses, demonstrating how life is enriched by learning to trust our intuition and spiritual gifts.

The Six of Cups (Reversed)

This one was interesting to me. The traditional meaning of this card indicates an absolute refusal to let go of the past. It is the clinging to old traditions, past glories and successes that prevents any achievement in “the now” for fear of not being able to compare.

My guides however told me that the card was chosen for its imagery and to look closely at the symbolism. As I gazed upon the empty cups I got an entirely different meaning…it was one of letting go and emptying out as it applies to learned information. Let me explain.

There are several stages of learning, take driving a car for example. First, there is unconscious incompetence; this is the time when you are not even aware that you do not know how to drive. Second, is conscious incompetence; at this point you begin to understand that this is something you don’t know how to do. Third, is conscious competence; this is where you learn how and can do it, however you are having to work at it. Fourth, is unconscious competence, this is when you are driving, talking on your cell phone and applying make-up all at the same time! (Just kidding) the point is that driving is now an unconscious skill, something you can do automatically without thinking about it.

My guides gave me the meaning through the symbolism of the card, that this was about emptying out and surrendering control. It is this leap of faith and trust that creates an opening for unconscious competence to occur

The Two of Wands

This card is the warrior armed with the courage of his/her convictions. I was not at all surprised to draw this card as in my last post I mentioned the presence of the Archangel Michael and this card had his energy all over it!

It is the dedication, willpower and hard work it takes to bring an idea to fruition. This card is also about pushing out personal boundaries and venturing beyond comfort zones. It is choosing risk over security in order to have the chance of knowing what you are truly capable of.

Overall Understanding

This tarot meditation spread spoke to me on many levels all at once. On the surface it is pretty obvious that I am working on going deeper to reveal more of my spiritual gifts and talents, that trust and surrender is required by my current growth and that this involves pushing my comfort zones and will require a high level of devotion to rework my personal boundaries.

On the deeper level I get that this is connected to my awakened healer; emptying the past, trust and surrender are required as that part of me has suffered greatly through past life experiences and of course, all of this…is going to and already has made me quite uncomfortable!

However these are the lessons before me in order to have full access to my heart chakra.  Since understanding and working with this energy center in my body is the next step on along my Highest Path and Purpose, it’s very cool that a spread like this in the Tarot can give me so much information on how to move through this process!

Share Your Experiences with the Spread!

Have you had any interesting tarot experiences that you’d like to share? Feel free to tell us about them in the comments section of this post! We look forward to hearing them and examining how our Guides like to use the cards

(Images are from The Sacred Circle Tarot by Anna franklin and Paul Mason)